restlessness

 

i never felt this way before.
i never felt so restless before.
i never felt the way i felt like now.

have been so tired the past months.
have been so stressed the past months.
have been so down with sickness that i have to go through certain thorough examinations.

craving for a break.
craving for a break to rest.
craving for a break for peace of my mind.
but never have i been so happier to be granted a indefinite break.

duly from it, my life is put on hold.
not complaining  but need to stay focus on resting and break-away.

it has been 3 weeks now.
first week, felt happy to empty my over-stress minds.
2nd week, felt happy to be doing some painting.
3rd week, now...felt wandering i need to start to have a routine life.

friend advised me to keep on resting until the wheel of stress begins again.
another one giving hand to search job for me.
and the remain one offer to work together with me.

whatever it takes i felt restlessness.
if that even a word though.