life so far

 

how's my life so far?

still waiting for my clinical replacement date.

everyday i wake up feeling ... meh

spent half of my day catching up with my...

readings

playing games

more readings

blogging (the kazu faraway)

art painting

gardening

cooking

sleeping

...

well i enjoyed most of the above activities so far

and i have yet to do these two activities which is...

walking

writing

...

should i even bother to write?

well this past few weeks i have been creating a world of medical with characters comprises of 70s rockstar

eh...it is full of nonsense as of now but let's see how it goes

anyway should i bother to create time schedule for my staycation at home while i am still waiting for my clinical placement date and unemployed?

restlessness

 

i never felt this way before.
i never felt so restless before.
i never felt the way i felt like now.

have been so tired the past months.
have been so stressed the past months.
have been so down with sickness that i have to go through certain thorough examinations.

craving for a break.
craving for a break to rest.
craving for a break for peace of my mind.
but never have i been so happier to be granted a indefinite break.

duly from it, my life is put on hold.
not complaining  but need to stay focus on resting and break-away.

it has been 3 weeks now.
first week, felt happy to empty my over-stress minds.
2nd week, felt happy to be doing some painting.
3rd week, now...felt wandering i need to start to have a routine life.

friend advised me to keep on resting until the wheel of stress begins again.
another one giving hand to search job for me.
and the remain one offer to work together with me.

whatever it takes i felt restlessness.
if that even a word though.

(intro)

i am a person who roam the earth searching for purpose.

i am a person who roam the earth searching for liberation.

i am a person who roam the earth searching for intention of being invisible.

and nothing can makes the heart content.

i am a person that has face obstacles which pained my feeling.

i am a person that has face obstacles which pained my ego.

i am a person that has face obstacles which pained my pride.

and please just kick me in the gut to end it all.

you are a person who travel the globe for leisure.

you are a person who travel the globe for mind peace.

you are a person who travel the globe for craziness.

and nothing can beat you down the selfishness.

i will welcome you to the nightmare of my delusional mind.

i could not guarantee that it will be an enjoyable ride,

but i can guarantee you that the experience is priceless.

WELCOME TO THE KAZU FARAWAY.

the mind of demented soul of a person.